hello ^^ thank you so much for worrying about me.my body seems to be getting a little stronger now and not so anemic (that's what it seems). i have some good news and some bad. this is big,i'm very sorry...read what you feel like,ok? ^^
About DA:
i was very worried because i haven't got any time to talk to you guys anymore,but there's nothing i can do T_T and i have some big things to worry right now.
i'm not really doing anything.i'm still open to art trades and requests;
my DA is having some troubles...i can't check people's galleries or faves x_x i wonder why?

About my grades:
one thing that made me really happy = ) i got all my grades up again and the 11º place at the simulated test.considering there are like 200 students doing it,i'm very very happy >w<! my parents are kind of strict,and in addiction i've always been kind of nerdy XD,but i never wanted to get the first place. some students are really serious about it!but acording to yah,i'm dead lazy XD and that's true because i know i could do better.

i'm always calculating my averages and trying to keep myself above the average,but i never aim for full grades.because i'd rather learn something fun than decorate everything.

but i couldn't be 100% happy about it after all,because yah and lis didn't do so well. i really wanted everyone that studies to do well at the tests,but it's not aways like that.the fact that i did so well may be just luck,because them both usually get the same grades than me.

About my life:
i'm really going to have a cirurgy made.i've been throught a lot of embarassing exams and the doctors took a lot of time to figure out what was wrong,because it's a rare case.don't worry i can't die from it,and it's actually not so serious.if you want to know more,please send me a note.
the thing is,this is like the worst year for me to be sick,because i'm abou to aply for college and i can't loose any classes.i'm trying to set the cirurgy to december or january,but i might have to do it sooner and that would mean at least a month out of school,pain and unability to focus on my studying. on my normal state already i have time for nothing.i don't know how is it gonna be...

my brother aplyed to be a model ^^ and he has called to são paulo! he'll totally be famous.because he's so confident and beautiful.the moment i saw those models i really felt like i didn't want to be a model XD maybe a stylist,but i sure wanted to be able to have all those dreams and confidence they have.my mom couldn't stop saying i should have applyed too.she is a great mother,but she is always telling me to be more talkative or smart,and to me it aways sounded like she was unhappy with a daugther like me.she worries about me,because she knows i have so little confidence in myself.i have way more confidence now, but sometimes she says some mean things and it brings me down =/

yah is closer to me now.but lis completely stoped talking to me,and doesn't let me talk to her either,she starts blocking me out.i really can't do nothing about it.i'm still gonna check her grades and stuff at the school's board.
as for wal-kun,he's doing fine ^^ but i still haven't met him,and sometimes that makes me really sad. maybe he'll go to a military academy .now i'm worried that brazil ever has any wars >_>... i guess i was missing him a little by the time i cryed.

i haven't really cryed since last year.even with all those things that happened. sometimes a tear or two slipped out,but not crying.i guess i was very nervous about all those things and about my cirurgy.i started sobbing and crying and i simply couldn't stop. it felt like i couldn't breathe,for almost an hour.my mom made me have a bath and then,i slept. the next day i slept during class too.i usually get very tired when i'm sad. now i'm better ^^ but i still fell sad whenever i think about some things.

i guess i'm worried because i don't know how things will turn out.
i hope they go somewhere interesting...

that's all for now ^^ it was a lot,i'm so sorry.i'm feeling better now ^^

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